Wednesday, January 20, 2010


So many times I came to the Lord and expect a answer on a question.
Should we have more children yes no
Am I moving in the right direction yes no
Should I discipline in this way yes no
I am confused should I go to ...... yes no
I feel a stirring in my heart so I want to do the right thing and yet when I ask for direction I almost sense Him moving back. I ask day after day and one day I feel this way and then the next my mind changes. I don't like being indecisive. What am I missing Lord? I know is has to be obvious, I am just not getting it.
Yet again as I am facing a fork in the road I am feeling like a ping pong ball back and forth back and forth. So while reading today I did not have God say yes or no but I feel His Word give clarity.
Luke 10:20-30 (The Message)
18-20Jesus said, "I know. I saw Satan fall, a bolt of lightning out of the sky. See what I've given you? Safe passage as you walk on snakes and scorpions, and protection from every assault of the Enemy. No one can put a hand on you. All the same, the great triumph is not in your authority over evil, but in God's authority over you and presence with you. Not what you do for God but what God does for you—that's the agenda for rejoicing."
When reading this scripture in the Message and NIV this part really stuck out for me. I get so focused on what I want to do for God. I think my original intent is good and then I lose focus. I was reminded that I need to come to Him like a child and just trust. Trust that he will give me clarity, trust that he is who he says he is, and rejoice before I even know what direction I am going. I get so ahead of my self and want to know now, one because I am excited and two because I am impatient.
Again Lord you remind me 1st - Love the Lord with all your heart soul and mind.
If I am so focused on the next thing or next decision then how can I love Him with all my heart soul and mind.
Lord you know my inmost being, you know when I sit and when I rise. You know my heart, my passions and desires. I lay them at your feet. I give them to you. I will not ask again. I will trust and know that you will work all things out for your Glory. I ask that your will be done.

I love you and help me to love you today with all my heart all my soul and all my mind!!
Isaiah 43(Message)
"Don't be afraid, I've redeemed you.
I've called your name. You're mine.
When you're in over your head, I'll be there with you.
When you're in rough waters, you will not go down.
When you're between a rock and a hard place,
it won't be a dead end—
Because I am God, your personal God,
The Holy of Israel, your Savior.

1 comment:

  1. I found you through Sue at Praise and Coffee! This post is really great and it speaks to me today. We are facing a lot of tough decisions in our family and like you, I find myself going "Yes or No, God." But we are trying to learn to rest and trust. It's so hard sometimes.

    Thanks for sharing! I love your blog!